Wednesday

April 2, 2025

My son was such a private person. He kept mostly to himself with a few select close friends by his side. If you were in his inner circle you can consider yourself one of the lucky ones. As his mom I saw it for myself his lack of any type of arrogance or conceit.

So now doing all this advocacy work I often wonder "What would Robert think of all this attention?" Like would he say "Really mom another billboard? Is that really my face up there by the SFO airport?"

And now his very own foundation has its own custom logo. A unique identifying logo. How about that. Its not something that is new to this work that I do to honor Robert. I have lost count on how many other parents are doing the same thing. We write books, we do custom fentanyl awareness billboards all over the country. We hold rallies, hold education speeches in packed school auditoriums and we keep on going.

Some of us ( a guy we will call Mike because well, he is Mike) is currently traveling across the state to visit 25 national waterfalls where he reads the names of our loved ones along with a prayer for the grieving left behind. What an awesome thing to do right? He is honoring his precious son Preston and helping heal a few broken hearts along the way. Lets all give a hand to Mike.

And some of us started an awareness project in Fort Bragg kinda by accident and now honor 100 + Angels and their grieving families and we ( meaning me) are just getting started.

My only hope is that Robert is proud of me and what I am doing to honor him. He already knows that I would not just sit around all day and cry in my soup. He knew me better than most and once told a close friend "my mom is my hero, she never gives up"

12 billboards, 120+ locks of loss, 5 newspaper articles, 3 dedicated websites, 500 new friends, a couple times sharing your story speeches and anything else my grief fog brain is forgetting. I would say its a pretty good start but what do I know.

I love you my beautiful boy with an endless hole in my heart💙💚💙

Xoxo

Mom